my new life!

BEING A MOM IS THE MOST INCREDIBLE THING I HAVE EVER EXPERIENCED!
Drezden brings me soo much happiness and joy! the past two months have been absolutely perfect! Drezden has changed soo much already. weighing in at 13 pounds 8 ounces 24 inches long! he is starting to smile alot and goo and squil! i love this age and i am enjoying every second of every minute with this little man! some things to remember of the first few months of his life:
i had a house full of loving family to welcome drezden home and help me with getting use to this new role as mother.
Drezden got the new born rash only lasted a day or two
he loves the sound of his DADDYS voice and loves to listen to max play guitar
he is a mommys boy and loves to eat and definantly knows how to tell me he is hungry!
i cant keep my eyes off of all his tiny little body parts and how perfect he is!
i still cant believe he came out of me and grew inside of me!
Drezden is PERFECTLY healthy
the Dr thinks that Drezden might have a lazy eyelid we will be going to a specialist
Drezden got circumsized at 2 weeks old that was not fun it killed me to hear him cry in pain, i stayed in the room with him and held my hands on his head and kissed his face reasurring him he will be okay, not even glancing once to what was going on. max watched the entire procedure and did just fine!
Drezden wakes up two eat every two hours on the dot.
Drezden always has his hands in a tight fist and likes to keep his hands up by his face when he sleeps!
gassy grunting poopy little boy
drezden loves to sleep right on my CHEST i love the skin to skin contact and so does he it calms him down no matter what is bothering him
Drezden LOVES the bath i think besides eating its his favorite part of the day!
he is picky with what he sucks on he wont take a bottle and will only suck on one type of binky.
the first few days he tried sucking on his two middle fingers but i wouldnt let him even though i think its adorable i know i can take away a binky to break the bad habit but i cant take away his fingers.
2 weeks we weighs 7 pounds 8 ounces
1 month he weighs in at 9 pounds 7 ounces
Drezden is very alert and really concentrates on you if you talk to him.
he has the same brow line as me and makes a mad face alot and also he has my nose and he flares his nostriles everytime he is peeing.
speaking of pee its been every where has hit us from across the room he is a shooter
he is a very lazy boy he doesnt like standing on his legs to much and doesnt really care to hold up his own head. but slowly and surely he is getting stronger and stronger!
the first time he really SMILED out of happiness not from gas was when he was 1 month old and i was talking to him and playing with him by pulling his binky out of his mouth and then putting it back he thought this was funny!
2 1/2 months he weighs in at 13 pounds 8 ounces
at two months old he is very alert and a very happy baby!! he goos squils and smiles all the time! he is getting harder to intertain though he wants to see it all and he is really getting his own little personality. he knows if he coughs i will hurry and pick him up thinking he might be choking some, but now he has a fake little cough that he uses to get my attention and to be picked up its too cute! he also has a fake little pitty cry more like he is yelling at me and his cry is slowly turning from that newborn cry to a cry that he is trying to talk to me and tell me whats wrong by making little yelling noises and gooing and sying in between his cry's. he hasnt full on giggled yet but he is soo close. he is a really breathy baby and so when he smiles really big he makes alot of high pitched squils and takes "happy" breaths if you know what i mean! he is spoiled and definantly has max and i wraped around his finger! because we are pretty much the only one who holds him we are pretty much the only ones he likes to be held by,this will change really soon once we get back home and around family.
he loves to be in his crib kicking and playing he loves to be FREE and kick around with his diaper off!
i have gotten him in the big bath tub a few times with me and he really likes this although if he can feel my bare skin at all he thinks he needs to eat it doesnt matter how full he is. he is starting to realize that he can SPLASH! the floor and mom and dad are usually totally soaked after each bath!
everywhere i go with him i get tons of compliments! everyone thinks he is the most beautiful little boy! i have to agree!!
HE IS VERY TICKLISH!
he loves his momma and loves to SNUGGLE thats my favorite part! i love being loved and needed soo much! its the greatest feeling ever!! i could go on and on and on about my lil man and all the happiness he brings me! really this is for my own self because i am terrible about writing in a journal and i dont want to forget all these PRECIOUS things!! thanks for reading anyway!

HE IS HERE!!!!

we couldnt be any happier

loving the skin to skin and hearing my heart beat! i love this special bond we have!

this daddy is soo proud and in love!

grandma chrisie

seconds after he was born! he came out just perfect!!

his first time home and on my bed! those are new born clothes everything drowns him!

Drezden Maxwell Miller born August 4th at 2:01 am weighing in at 6 pounds 13.9 ounces, 19 inches long! we are soooooooooooooooo freakin happy! life couldnt get any better than this! i will write more about the whole experience when i get more time, for now i am too preoccupied i cant take my eyes off of him!!

Maternity Pictures!

this baby was made threw love and will be brought into this world with love!

we are both soooo excited!!

monterey is beautifull, this is where we live!

SUMMER 2010 UPDATE!

hey there everyone, i have been falling behind on keeping things posted, so i am setting my life aside and forcing myself to write on here. alot has been going on in our busy little life. first off we have an unexpected new family member. a boxer pup, his name is Bowzer, to keep a long story short we were not at all looking to get a dog, at least i was against the idea with the baby coming i didnt want to be dealing with potty training a puppy or training one at all while getting ready for a baby. max really wanted a dog but he wanted to go to the next extreme..a great dane! that was just out of the question. anyway about a month and a half ago while driving home from enrichment night i watched about three cars slam on their brakes almost hitting a black little creature running freely threw the street, i thought it was a cat then he ran in front of my car not once but twice, i almost hit him. so i pulled over and discovered it was a puppy i threw him in my car and headed home with the intentions to find his family, i just couldnt leave him running the streets i knew he would become part of the road if i didnt act fast! i dont think it really hit us until the next morning when we took him out of our bathroom and played with him out our back yard what we had gotten ourself into. he was covered in fleas warms crawling out of his butt, and he has a cherry eye, and his collar was on super tight. i took him to the vet got him all cleaned up and medicated, and posted on craigslist that i found him, and called the shelters around here to see if anyone was looking for him. after about three weeks and a surgery to remove a fox tail out of his nose 500 dollars later we decided we had invested way too much into this pup and honeslty we were pretty attatched. he's ours! and luckily he is a very well behaved puppy and came potty trained so that was nice!! memorial weekend we went camping up in the mountains with some good friends we have made here. it was at a beautifull camp grounds called verterans memorial park, it was a very different experience because it looks and feels like your in a red wood forest or cedar mountain but yet you can hear the sea lions barking on the beach and see the ocean from the camp spot haha it was really cool!

OUR ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY!! june,6,2010. i cant believe it has been a whole year! the best year ever! seriously Max and I are truly soooo happy! i love being married, sharing a home with my best friend, building our future and family together is so exciting! people say the first year is the hardest, if the years to come are easier and happier than this year my life is going to be a breeze! one year ago was the happiest day of my life! we made the best decision ever! i love my hunny! max planned out a date for us to celebrate our anniversary this year, he didnt tell me what we were doing he just told me wherever we went had a dress code, no jeans girls in dresses, no flip flops or anything like that, so i got all dolled up in a really pretty black dress and hills, it was fun having a reason to get dressed up and pretty. first max drove us up to carmel and we sat pulled off the road watching the waves crash on the beach in carmel, point lobos area, then when it was time for his reservations he drove me up the steep hill into a very rich amazing, private neighborhood, it was beautifull every where you looked you could see the ocean and mountains and just breath taking views. we ate at not only the most fanciest and top of the line restraunt i have ever been to, but it was the most amazing food i have ever ever had in my life! and it was also the most expensive meal we have ever ate at it was 180.00! but the view and atmosphere alone was worth every penny let alone every bite. it was very very special they treated us like king and queens! every meal we had the waiter offered to take a picture of us with the meal. i would never want to be proposed inside of a restraunt but this restraunt was an acception it was very romantic, max did great! the pictures below are of 1: maxs 22 ounce steak! the best steak we have ever tasted ever! 2: the view from our table the entire restraunt was almost completely windows on the edge of this cliff hanging over the ocean in carmel 3: max and i on our anniversary 4: our amazing desert that had happy anniversary written on white chocolate in chocolate! that made it really special!

my expanding belly!

my belly is really starting to expand!! its crazy! but thank goodness NO stretch marks! knock on wood im terrified to get them but im sure i will! im really starting to feel uncomfortable mostly in my ribs and back! i dont know if i can handle getting any bigger! but im loving the bump and really loving my lil man inside!!

this is me at twenty eight weeks!

this is me at sixteen weeks!

this is me at 26 weeks!

this is me at 21 weeks!

my BUMP!

Well so far my pregnancy has been absolutely enjoyable!
THINGS TO REMEMBER ABOUT MY FIRST TRIMESTER
-i felt very bloated and gross!
-i never threw up but definantly felt like it alot!
-i wished i didnt have a nose, smells killed me!
-i was still in alot of shock and couldnt believe there was a baby in me.
-headaches alot
-craved nothing but junk food, mcdonalds fries and orange chicken
-everything i ate in the first trimester i cant even touch or think about now.
-i had alot of doubt and denile that i could actually carry a baby full term.
-no energy!
-read every pregnancy book out there.
THINGS TO REMEMBER ABOUT THE 2ND TRIMESTER!
-still in alot of shock and couldnt believe i am pregnant!
-started feeling better, around 19 weeks and on i was feeling better than even before i was pregnant. pregnancy glow
-craved chips and salsa and DURANGOS everysingle day!
- stress about baby name.
- had my first anxiety attack
-started to really show.
-lady asked if i was pregnant for the first time, that was weird!
-soooo happyy and excited!
-felt my baby move for the first time at seventeen weeks.
- max felt the baby move for the first time at around nineteen weeks
- found out were having a BOY at twenty weeks!
-really started working out alot more, walking every day and gym
-baby flips kicks and punches none stop he is a very active baby!
-started lactating at like twenty weeks! its crazy, but the doc says its a good thing..
-started to wear my strechy pants.
SO FAR IN MY THIRD TRIMESTER:
-starting to get really big!
-baby is growing perfectly and he is very healthy
-the baby is starting to slow down i feel bigger movements like stretching and balling up. no more flipping around.
-still no stretch marks thank goodness!
-im starting to get really uncomfortable, my ribs kill, i feel like a have a broken rib from expanding, my low back and heels hurt bad by the end of the day.
-still in shock that i actually have a baby inside me even though i feel him 24/7
-starting to get the nursery together!
-craving durangos, watermelon, strawberries, and chocolate!
-im getting really excited and anxious to have our lil man here!!
- still stressing about a name.
-starting to get those braxton hicks contractions
- we feel sooo blessed! our life couldnt get any better!

im innocent i swear!!!

The day after easter sunday my sister and i drove the long but beautiful drive back to our hometown mesquite/ st. george!! the drive really was not bad at all there is soo much to look at along the way, monday around four we arrived in mesquite and headed straight to my grandma bundy's house where my mom and two younger sisters were anxiously awaiting our arrival. it was alot of fun to see them it was the first time any of them have seen me since i told them i was pregnant and was not showing at all, it made my pregnancy feel real for everyone to see my little baby bump. after we visited my grandma and eachother for a while we all drove up to my dads house which is only about two and a half minutes away, he had absolutely no idea i was coming and was completely surprised! and soo happy!! i stayed for a week and four days and that was just the exact amount of time i needed to see everyone i wanted to see do all the things ive been wanting to do and most importantly eat at all the places i crave everyday in monterey ( i ate at durangos twice and wish now i would have everday!!). this last friday my sister and my friend drove me down to the las vegas air port, i was sad to leave but sooo overly excited and homesick for my husband! this being my second official time flying and first time flying alone i was a little nervous! i hate being alone!! they stayed with me until security and then we went our own way. the line and airport was just packed with people so it took me a little longer than i thought it would to get threw security so i was a little stressed for time.. once it was my turn to put my carry on bag, purse, and shoes on the belt to go threw the xray security thingy i walked myself threw the metal detector right away a beeping noise went off and the man said i had to be randomly searched, i was totally okay with it and all i asked was if it would take long cause i was worried about time they looked at my ticket and said i had enough time. my bags were in the x ray thing for kinda along time and was starting to hold up the line i didnt think much of it and just rolled with the punches. the security man told me that my purse was fine and that he just needed to go threw my carry on bag. he put my bag on a table and started pulling out all my clothes he told me at any time i cannot try to reach or grab anything out of my bag, and i was like okay thats fine, not worried or sweating anything i was just going threw the motions and sending max a text. the security man started talking to me so i looked up at him and he said this was in your bag! it was a pretty large pocket knife the blade was about the size of my hand. at first i thought he was joking and i actually asked him if he was kidding and if he was serious! he definantly was seriouse! i told him i had never seen the knife in my life i didnt know it was in there and that i was terribly sorry!! and soo embarrassed. i explained to the man my situation.. when i found out i was flying home i didnt want to pay the price or go threw the headache of checking in a bag so when i was at my dads i just grabbed a carry on size suite case that i could fit my stuff in, the bag was all folded up and appeared to be empty so i just shoved all my stuff in the bag without double checking! it must be my dads i said but i didnt care what they did to it i told them i didnt need it or care if they took it i just wanted to keep my flight and get home to my hubby. the man brought the knife over to more security guards and told them what he had found.. he came back and told me he had to run my bag threw one more time and that he would be keeping the knife. i was soo embarrassed but also soooo happy he didnt treat me like a criminal, throw me in jail, interegate me etc. he was actually pretty cool about it! i still cant believe what happened to me of all the things that could have been left in that suit case it just had to be a over sized pocket knife! oh geezz but i have to say if i was trying to high jack a plane or sneak on a weapon i did have a pretty innocent believable look.. twenty year old pregnant girl hahaha!!!